Thinking about things...

I am blessed. Truely blessed. When I first found out that I was pregnant with Joey, I was scared and excited all at the same time. Planning for your first child is nervewracking. You don't know which crib is best, which stroller is the easiest to unfold/fold, and which bottles are the right ones for your child. Nothing is good enough though. I always had second thoughts on what I should be getting for Joey. What would make him the most comfortable and what would make my life the easiest. Once I had him, I learned things through trial and error. He liked certain bottles and not others. Once he got bigger, we ditched the big stroller for a smaller, more compact and easier to use one. I didn't care as much what diapers he had or that we threw his formula away after exactly 1 hr that he started the botttle. Things were more lax. I truely learned what was important when Joey was about 9 or so months old. My mom was diagnosed with thyroid cancer and lymphoma. It was so scary. I was only 25. Mom was only 50. Thats so young to have reality knocked into you, but it happend. I was so scared that I was going to lose my mom. We all realized what was the most important things in life. It wasn't important if the laundry was done every day or if the dishes were all done. We realized that spending time with each other was the most important thing. Right after we found out she had cancer, I found out that I was pregnant with the twins. Mom and I were soooo sick. I think that we were meant to be sick with each other. Mom was going through radiation and that made her so sick to her stomach, have no appetite, and she was burnt. She had no energy and it was a chore for her just to get up and get around in the morning. She was awesome though. She still watched Joey while I went to work. Brayden (my nephew) was there to help her and I think that he made a world of difference in my mom. He did things for her when she couldn't. I was so sick too. the first few months of my pregnancy was the worst. I lost almost 20 lbs in one month from throwing up so much. I think that God put mom and I through those trials at the same time to teach us to lean on each other.
Anyways, as I was holding my boys today, I realized that lately I have been so stressed out and at my wits end with the kids. I have been stressing about how dirty the house has been and how things haven't been getting done like I wish they would have. I was stressed because the twins only wanted to be held and because Joey didn't want me to hold them. I realized that I need to calm it down. My kids are wonderful. They are perfect in every way. Sooo many people either are not blessed with children, or they take the children they have for granted.
When I was pregnant with the twins and even now, people tell me I have my hands full. I do. I have them so full of love! I wouldn't have it any other way. Someone said about me having twins and a toddler, "better you than me." I responded, "Yes, Better ME than YOU." The way that I look at it is that God gave me these boys for a reson. To raise as good Christian men and husbands. To teach them the RIGHT way to be. I am going to make it a point to make sure they learn how to do their laundry, pick up after themselves, and how to treat women the right way!
I am looking forward to the summer where we can spend a lot of time together outside and enjoying new things. I know that I want to take Joey to the park soon so he can play there. My children and family are the most important things in my life and I plan on making them more of a priority. I do see a need to keep my house clean for my own sanity and for the kids, but I know that its something that is not as important as playing with my boys. So for all of those who are reading this, take a minute to kiss your little ones. Some people don't have little ones to kiss.