Birthday Time!

So I am now 27. Sounds old to me. I know its not, but 27 is closer to 30 which is on my way to 40. 26 is closer to 25 which is still in my mid 20's. Neurotic I know, but thats the way I view it. I had a few days filled with birthday celebrations. Wednesday night/Thursday morning at 1201am, I went and saw Sex and The City with Jessica. It was a good movie, but I was soooo tired the next day. I got home at 3am and one of the boys were up at 4 to eat and one was up at 430 to eat as well. Joey was up for the day at 630 and boy was I an emotional wreck. It was a super long day for me.
Friday I celebrated my birthday with my family (Mom, Dad, Jesse, Marc, and the boys) because I had to work on Saturday. I met up with Mom and I got to tan. She then took me out to lunch! We went shopping to a few different places and then we ended up back at her house. I think I took a little nap and then played with the boys for a while. Joey got an inflatable baby pool, so he was in and out of that the whole day. We worked on the garden as well. For dinner, we had BBQ pulled pork and chips and had strawberry shortcake for dessert! YUM! For my birthday, mom got me a Miche bag. If you haven't heard of them, they are super cool. The shells on the outside of the purse change so you don't have to take everything out when you want to change purses. You just switch the shell. I got the purse and 4 shells! Jesse got me a gift certificate for a mani/pedi!
The next day was my official birthday and I had to work :( I really didn't want to, but we were short on the floor anyways. I headed to work and not too long after I got there, Marc showed up with the boys and brought me flowers from the boys. He also brought bagels for everyone here at work! He then headed up to his parents house. That sucked. I really didn't want to be alone the night of my birthday. After work, I went and got Chinese food and went home. I ate and then cleaned. What a way to spend my birthday huh! Oh well. I am one year older and another year wiser!
The funny thing is that I wouldn't want to be 21 again for anything in the world. I am glad that I have learned what I have learned, but I wouldn't want to do it over again. I know that the decisions that I have made in my life have led me to where I am. Although I wish I could have changed some things, I love my life for who is in it.

Cloth Diaper Blog!

So since we made the switch to Cloth Diapers, I have been looking at blogs of those that do CD. One of the ladies that owns her own CD store lives about 20 min from me and she has been a great resource for all of my CD needs and questions. You can read the blog here to learn more about the co op of wonderful cloth diaper retailers!

Boo for being sick!

So Joey was sick last week. He had a fever for 4 days which wasn't good. He would wake up in the morning so hot. I would immediately give him some tylenol or motrin to help his fever and continue giving it to him all day to control it. I was pushing fluids as well. Poor guy crawled up in my lap a few times and fell asleep. Isn't it weird that you have strict rules when it comes to your children, but when they are sick, they all go flying out the window? I gave into pretty much anything and everything that he wanted just because he was sick. I gave him watered down soda just to make sure he was getting fluid in him. I went outside when he wanted to becuase I hoped it would make him feel better. I would have went to the ends of the earth to make him feel better. Finally, on Friday his fever broke and he was feeling much better. I took him to the dr on Thursday because I was so worried and he didn't have an ear infection, but his throat was red. No strep, but it was most likely something viral. Boy am I glad that its over!

Dr Appt

So the twins went in for a dr appt on the 14th of this month and had a checkup. They are doing great! Johnathan is 13lb 13oz and Jonah is 14lb 9oz. They had the same head circumference and Johnathan was a little longer at 24.25 in and Jonah was 24 in. They are getting so big! They are both rolling over from their tummies to their backs. It doesn't happen all the time, but they do have the ability to do it. Johnathan loves being on his tummy and looking around at everything. I got out of the shower the other day and Jonah was crying. They were both laying down on my bed and I came in and Jonah was screaming his head off and Johnathan was looking at him like he was nuts. They have somewhat noticed each other lately. It is so cute! I can't wait until they are playing with each other.
They are starting to talk/make noise too. They sound sort of like they are fussing, but they aren't. I love hearing them do that because I know that in a few months, it will be actual talking.
The dr said they are very healthy and nothing to worry about. WOO HOO!!!

Decisions

So do you ever wonder if you made the right decision? In certain situations, you can make a decision that really doesn't matter at the time, but in the long run, it does make a difference. What if you bought the black top instead of the pink one? I know that that analogy might be silly to some, but when you really think about it, each decision you make changes your life.
Here recently I have been contemplating some of the decisions that I have made recently in my life. I guess in all reality, the decisions that I have made haven't ruined my life, but I wonder what I would have done if I had done things differently. Where would I be right now? What would I be doing? How would I feel about what I am doing? Was it the right decision? Was I being selfish when I made the decision? I don't know if its me or if its something else because I tend to be swayed when I am in the presence of (either reading online or actually in person) of someone who has made a different choice than I did.
Why can't someone just tell me what to do? Why do I feel the need to second guess myself? I am a good mom. I do the right things for my kids. If I am such a good mom, then why do I worry about what I have done? My kids are healthy, smart, and oh so cute. When I second guess myself, I tend to put myself down for the decisions that I have made. Did I do it because it was what was best for me or for them? Am I just being selfish or did I have a legitimate reason for doing what I did.
I know that this whole post might be confusing to some people and some people who haven't gone through it wouldn't understand, but to me its important. I just hope that I am not on that slippery slope that can sometimes be considered as PPD. I get mad at myself for not breastfeeding longer than I did with the twins. Did I give up too early? Should I have stuck with it longer to give them more benefits? I mean they are healthy big boys, not lacking in the weight department. They seem to be developing right on track and to be so happy. Am I just worrying about it because I know people around me that are breastfeeding or is it because I am being selfish and wanting to do it too. lkajseo frawl,kenrf.paw2k/ I get so frustrated when I second guess myself on the things that I do in my kids lives. I guess all I can do is pray. Pray that I can be at peace with my decisions and to move on with life and do things that I enjoy.

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I did NOT let Joey smash cake in his own face at a graduation party because it made cute pictures.

I did NOT act like I was asleep the other night so Marc had to get up with the boys for ONCE!
I did NOT let my sick almost 20 month old drink watered down root beer because I wasn't worried that he would get dehydrated. He didn't like it either. I also didn't let him play outside on the filthy porch because it wouldn't make him happy in his fever induced fussiness.

I did NOT have my mom come over and help me clean up my house becuase I can ALWAYS get it cleaned every day.

I did NOT get excited to have Jury duty so that I didn't have to come into work.

I did NOT enjoy holding my feverish son, just realizing that I haven't held him like that in a long time and that he is NOT turing into a wonderful boy!

(I did NOT just tear up writing that last one!)

Dear So and So

So I got the idea for this blog that I will try to do at least once a week (haha thats to say that I blog more than once a week lol) I got the ideal from here. So here it goes!

Dear Jury Duty:
I really didn't mind coming in on Monday, but why do you make us sit there and not do anything ALL DAY LONG? I know that you were nice enough to give us a break from 1145 until 115pm, but besides that, sitting in a basement room with about 100 other people from 9am until 4pm isn't a good use of your resources. At least I know that I can bring my laptop next time!
Signed, An Angry Juror

Dear Hubs:
Just a question, Did your mom teach you how to do anything besides sleep? Because you sure don't do much around the house. Those clothes and dishes don't pick up after themselves. I understand you work all day, but so do I! I just happen to work at home 4 of the 7 days a week. Other than that, I work 12 hr days which are WAY longer than your days. I shouldn't be expected to do all of the work around the house. And spending evenings at my parents house is great, but I can't get anything done around the house if we aren't at home!
Signed, A Frustrated Housewife

Dear Weather:
I know that we need the rain, but 13 out of 17 days so far this month is a big much to be seeing you. Your welcomed wetness is great for the garden, but not so wonderful when my toddler wants to be outside. Thank you for coming, just please don't come too much!
Signed, A Muddy Momma